Sacrifice

I am the mighty ruler of all.
But I'm not happy.
Not happy at all.
I'm on the top of the world looking down on thee.
And yet my sons still look up to me.

Why aren’t you happy many would say?
Because I'm just sitting here day by day.
Losing my mind.

I work hard to try to please everyone.
And I still feel as if I'm tied down.
Or caged like a wild animal.
With no tongue, no say.
There was just no way.
Out of it all.
Until I got a certain call.
It was like a beacon flashing across a bog.
I could not understand it all at first.
Until I had the courage to move the fog.

My past appered
And showed ME
A killer
It was not me that killed the man
It was the achohol that crashed the van
And now I am a killer,a murderer

I was summoned to end my life.
On this very day.
But I just could not leave my true love alone.
Just to bare my pain day after day.

I sat in the closet thinking, wondering.
Would anyone miss me?
Grasping the cold, hard, unforgiving barrel of my shotgun .
Tight in my hand.
This was the quickest and easiest way of my pain.

I have taken to many chances at life
After the accident and now its clear that its fate that I do what is best

But the easiest way is not always the best way.
Especially when your decision can end your life.
Because of my past.
It all became clear to what I should do.

Late one night I could not go to sleep .
All I could do was weep
So I broke to barrel of my gun.
And loaded the shell.
I counted cautiously to 10.
And then...

BANG!

By Jordan H. (2012)