Smile

How can I smile?

When no one understands

When I’m just a normal girl

With the name of Willow

Who is always harassed by girls at my school?

Whose parents beat her?

Who can’t even look at herself in the mirror because she gets disgusted?

There’s nothing left here.

So why suffer?

How can I smile?
When pain is all I ever felt
And the issue is never dealt
The feeling of death never leaves
Somewhere in my mind it always hides
I feel as if I’m a part of something
Yet I have nothing to live for
And my heart is always sore
So why suffer?

How can I smile?
When at night my fears haunt me
And anxiety races through me
My dreams want me to drown out at sea
We all feel things that no one can see
I pray that I will stop feeling like this
I know deep down in my soul the feeling will never leave
I don’t belong here in this world
So why suffer?

How can I smile?
When my family doesn’t even look at me
And you have no friends to pour out your feelings too
Because of you
I hate myself
I pray to God that I’m sleeping
Maybe this all a dream
No one will ever be there for me
That’s the reason why I doubt myself
So why suffer?

How can I smile?
When I feel lost
When I don’t fit in
When I feel like an unsolved puzzle
When I get chills of just thinking of being happy
When I don’t see a future for myself
When I just want my heart to stop beating
So why suffer?

Alexis K. (2011)

Work Cited:
"Depressed girl." Photograph. shadow-gallery.tumblr.com.Web. 9 Sep 2011.

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